2020,  Career

Musings: Courage in Action

Remember when I set my intention?

Yeah, well I wasn’t fully transparent about why I set it as courage. A LOT of things were happening at the end of 2019 and, well of course when it comes to your career you have to be more discreet. Although everyone who needed to know knew, it wasn’t something I wanted to share until it did or did not happen. But phew, IT happened!

I have never fought so hard for a job. However, with this experience, I had one mindset that completely helped, what will be meant for you. Even if it doesn’t feel like it at the moment, it will be the path you are destined for. With this mindset, I lived my truth and saw it play out before me.

I honestly wasn’t looking for a change. I enjoyed my job and what I was doing. I loved my boss and really enjoyed the dynamics of our team. This opportunity really was something that just felt like if I didn’t try for it, I’d regret it for my entire life. I don’t have too many regrets in life and I didn’t want to add this to that list.

I think I started the process in September. I’d heard about the job but was originally scared off by the travel. But after some discussions and meet and greets, I learned much more about the role, especially the travel expectations. It was always a role I knew I would love and thrive in, but I was lacking the courage to try the change it would inevitably bring to my life.

I wanted to spice up my candidacy, so I really went all out and updated my resume. Not only the copy and content, but I made it look really unlike my current, boring Word document. I went to Canva to source a layout that included my picture and colors. It was time-consuming, but I wanted to give everything to this opportunity.

And when I finally hit send, I received my rejection letter in less than five minutes. I shit you not. FIVE minutes.

I was crushed. I let myself feel the feels, I honestly did. And then I reached out to resources to see what I should next. So I attached the next steps with vigor and essentially wasn’t letting HR send me a generic rejection letter. I questioned why and what was missing, then provided detailed explanations as to why I deserved at least an interview. After lots of rounds and leaving my ego at the door and doing what was necessary, I secured an interview.

Oddly, I was apprehensive, but I wasn’t nervous. It was this odd sense of calmness, knowing this was such a good fit for me at this moment, my life, my career. But I knew I had to be prepared and also be able to explain this during my interview. The funny thing was, I didn’t have my normal pre-interview nerves, but post-interview I felt like I was having panic attacks. BOTH times! I’ve NEVER felt that before. While I remained calm and collected during each interview, post-interview my body attacked itself. It was really weird and I still don’t understand it, but I knew I gave both interviews my best and shared the best possible version of myself, my work, and my career history with them.

Fast forward three months after I started this process, they told me I got the job! I was anticipating the call for a while and when it came I could have screamed. I may have, slightly.

I know it all happened the way it did because I was supposed to learn something from the process. I learned to persevere, humility, and how to be strong in my convictions. When something is right for you, it will manifest in whatever way it chooses, but it will be for you if it is meant to be.

I am scared.

I am excited.

I am courageous.

I am ready.

I am all things. I know the scared part is apprehension for change and doing something new. But I also know this is EXACTLY where I am supposed to be. I am proud of how I managed the process and my ability to remain strong in my self-worth, self-care, and self-love during this process.

So, without being able to say as much before, courage will be my focus for 2020 because of this exciting career change, but also because I want it to manifest in all aspects of my life. This is one small step in implementing my intention, but it set the course and I will continue to use courage to light my path this year.

As I was chatting with a friend last night, I realized I was really manifesting this promotion all along and I had no clue. I got my TSA pre-check, then I made sure to get my Real ID, all of which played right into what I would need in my future, my now!

Pls be courageous. Pls try for the things you want. You may not get them, but hey, you MAY get them! I know courage is my intention for 2020, but I hope if I can share a little inspiration or courage by example, then I want too.

I’ve never been one to really push the boundaries with my career. But I decided that it was time too. I am a natural marketer, but I am also a natural relationship and community builder, in ALL aspects of my life. It was time to let myself get a little uncomfortable because I know that is where growth lies. And I don’t want to be stagnant in any part of my life. I realize that at times it life and choices will be slower, but there is a huge difference between slow and stagnant. The later is not where I want to be.

My decision to apply was one of the best things in 2019. The rejection email was an even better thing to happen. It put me into hyper gear to really go after what I want and I’m proud of what I did. This isn’t a humblebrag, it is me saying I’m proud of myself. And we, as a society, don’t do that enough. Be proud of your strides, because you, more than anyone, know them and lived them.

This new road warrior is ready!

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