• 2019,  Musings,  New Year

    Musings: 2010s, A Colorful Decade

    Not your average end of the year post. I honestly didn’t even think that as 2020 approaches, not only are we ending 2019, but we are ending a decade. Funny how life works out that way. As I sat here thinking about the last ten years, I was trying to think of the highlights, which proved a little difficult… Off the cuff, I came up with the following: 2010 – Traveled solo for the first time (Kauai) 2011 – Completely hiked Half Dome for the first time 2012 – The SF Giants won the World Series 2012 – Started my career at Blue Diamond Growers 2013 – I started blogging…

  • 2019,  Health,  Mental Health,  Musings

    Musings: What the Stress?

    Let the bullshit blow in the breeze. The Pharcyde lyrics that are imprinted in my heart and mind. However, no matter how many times I repeat that line when I’m in the thick of it, it doesn’t help. It also doesn’t help when I cannot identify when I’m stressed. Does that happen to you? Do you know your stressors? Do you know how to de-stress yourself? Well, shit! Neither do I apparently. Recently, I’ve become so stressed my immune system was repressed, which eventually led to a flare up of Shingles. Yes, you’ve read that correctly. Shingles. Like what old people get. I’m digressing, but really it was the highlight…

  • 2019,  Dating,  Friends,  Musings,  Relationships

    Musings: Speed Dating

    Speed dating isn’t just for RomComs. It’s real. It’s a thing. And I did it… …with two friends of course. I’d been having different convos with different friends about the same topic over the last couple of months. All of us interested in trying it out, for the sake of trying it. Finally, Kristen did a little leg work and signed us up with My Cheeky Date. Their website looks legit. We paid our money and got our Eventbrite tickets and waited for the day to arrive. We met at my casa and shared a bottle of wine and laughs before we headed out to the event. None of us…

  • 2019,  Blogging,  Musings

    Musings: I Belong

    Sometimes you have to tell your insecurities to shut the F up! And go about your business, like a boss. Or at least with your head held high. I was invited to what I originally thought was a dinner and wine event. Come to find out, it was, but it was also a photoshoot. I was lightweight stressing out because I’ve never been included in something like this. I’ve gone to food blogger events, but the food gets the attention, not me. Not that this dinner would be focusing on me, but I would be photographed and it scared me. It also made my insecurities go through the roof. The…

  • 2019,  California,  Food,  Friends,  Musings,  San Diego

    Cali Girl Does San Diego: Girls Long Weekend

    Four days in sunny SD bliss! Lil had to head down to SD for a wedding, so she asked if I wanted to make a fun weekend out of it. Uh, yeah, duh! Then I invited Monique too, so it became round two of our Disneyland trip in March for my birthday. I crowdsourced FB for recommendations and everyone came in clutch. I saved all the reccos in my Yelp Stay Classy SD collection of places to visit, things to do, and places to eat! I thought I’d share what and where we ate but also places we visited: Snooze, An A.M. Eatery – breakfast pot pie and coffeeSan Diego…

  • 2019,  Mental Health,  Musings

    Musings: October Reset

    Fall has me in my feels. Well, I think it’s a bunch of life things happening, but I have an overwhelming sense that I need a reset of sorts. I need to start fresh if you will. Fall recently arrived, but the Sacramento weather has taken an unexpected chilly turn. I’m used to October still hovering in the 80s for a couple of weeks, but we are now in the brisk 60s. This weather change has coincided with some life changes. Not even big or anything I want to detail out here, but just change. Change happens all the time, but sometimes its more impactful than we realize. It felt…

  • 2019,  Baseball,  Musings,  SF Giants

    Musings: A Love Letter to Our Skipper

    I was not ready to write this before Sunday. I don’t think I’m still equipped to write this right now. Sunday I was full of emotions, coupled with possibly the worst hangover of 2019 too. Thus, made me an emotional mess to watch as Bruce Bochy commandeered his final SF Giants game E V E R! So, here I am, still sad with chills, going to say what I need to say to Boch. Dear Bochy, Congratulations on your retirement. I wish I could be mad that you are leaving us, but honestly, you deserve this retirement and time spent resting with loved ones and enjoying the next chapter of…

  • 2019,  Mental Health,  Musings

    Musings: I Realized I’m a People Pleaser

    And I’m not okay with it… …at all! I want to write about this because it took hours of therapy and self-reflection to truly understand this. Then it took a while to accept this, but more importantly, I’m learning from it. And for that, I’m grateful I recognized it and can move forward in a different direction. There is definitely a spectrum of people-pleasing, and I’m somewhere in the middle. I don’t have an eager to please that stems from self-worth issues. In turn, I do act according to how rejected and/or accepted I anticipate an outcome will happen. The most important part of my process of understanding my people-pleasing…

  • 2019,  Musings,  Retail,  SHEIN

    Musings: To SHEIN or Not SHEIN

    I’m sketch on companies that sell clothes on Facebook. But their continual advertisements had me finally questioning myself. Then led me to question friends and coworkers about SHEIN. In all the consensus was its a ‘mixed bag!” Also, I have to give credit to my co-worker, Rebecca, who really sealed the deal for me. She walked me through one of her past orders and told me what she did and did not like about each item. I even went to FB to crowdsource some info about the company, but again, just like Rebecca said, everyone agreed to the ‘mixed bag’ notion. So, I was waiting until I wore all the…

  • 2019,  Mental Health,  Musings,  Relationships,  Therapy

    Musings: Growth is Ugly

    Yet so rewarding. Growth and healing are a beautiful struggle I’ve experienced lately, across all parts of my life; family, friends, and personal relationships. It’s most impacted the way I communicate with these different people overall. I see the differences, resulting from healing and actively trying to grow into the best version of myself. Things don’t bug me as they used too. I don’t hold on to anger, nor do I associate its origin with anyone or anything else. I have learned to let things go. Some are worth my time and voice, and some just plain aren’t anymore. This means fewer relationships and more peace. I don’t know when…