• 2019,  Mental Health,  Musings,  Relationships,  Therapy

    Musings: Growth is Ugly

    Yet so rewarding. Growth and healing are a beautiful struggle I’ve experienced lately, across all parts of my life; family, friends, and personal relationships. It’s most impacted the way I communicate with these different people overall. I see the differences, resulting from healing and actively trying to grow into the best version of myself. Things don’t bug me as they used too. I don’t hold on to anger, nor do I associate its origin with anyone or anything else. I have learned to let things go. Some are worth my time and voice, and some just plain aren’t anymore. This means fewer relationships and more peace. I don’t know when…

  • 2019,  Fitness,  Mental Health,  Midtown Strength & Conditioning,  Musings

    Musings: OOO Every Thursday

    Something needed to change… …and it was on me. I feel a little fraudulent. I tend to share a lot of self-love, growth, and healing posts on social media and even here on the blog. But YET AGAIN, I find myself not listening to my own body. 10 amazing days in Hawaii, followed by a non-stop schedule when I touched down at home. All (kinda) came to a halt when my body decided to remind my mind to STOP. Slow down and stop going so fast. Be by yourself, be still. It isn’t until my body starts to shut down, do I slow down. I know this, yet I don’t practice…

  • 2019,  Friends,  Health,  Mental Health,  Sacramento,  Wellness

    Musings: Nourish

    A full day of wellness you say… Sure, sign me up. Thanks to Erica, of Fit Crawl, I was gifted a ticket for myself and Ambriss to attend the inaugural Nourish wellness event in Sacramento, CA. Two women, Amber Rosen & Sarah Stebbins, created Nourish to ‘…empower you with the knowledge and tools to support your wellbeing on a consistent, daily basis.’ From what I remember from the event, they met less than a year ago, where the idea for Nourish was started. Since then, they’ve developed a wellness brand that is based on the elements of her: body soul wealth community You already know I’m a little snarky, even…

  • 2019,  Mental Health,  Musings

    Musings: Expectations

    Everyone has them, but not everyone lives up to them. Scrolling through IG stories, I came across a story that put one of life’s biggest lessons so simple: Stop expecting YOU from people. When I read that, I was like, “THIS is what I’ve been trying to articulate for forever!” This is one of my biggest lessons I’ve learned in my 30’s. It’s taken that long for me to realize this and I am trying not to judge myself for this, but I’m just grateful I know it now. It doesn’t make it any easier when I feel let down. But it is teaching me to release expectations. Or at…

  • 2019,  Health,  Mental Health,  Therapy

    Musings: Let’s Talk About Therapy

    I’m just a girl who needed a therapist and decided to talk openly about it. I’m honored that people have reached out to me in regards to my experience with therapy and finding a therapist. I am not an expert and am still in the fresh stages of therapy, less than one year. But I would love to share my experience if it help others. Since I chose to be very open about my mental health post-breakup, a handful of friends and acquaintances have reached out about the details of my experience with therapy. While I believe sharing my truth is also being authentic with those around me, it has…

  • 2016,  Health,  Mental Health,  Musings

    Musings: Facial Face

    Do you make random things up?…like I do! Facial Face is among the handful of them. It’s pretty self explanatory, it’s my face after a facial. More importantly, its a face with no makeup. Literally taken right after I left the Skin Ninja, in her parking lot! I wish I could sit here and say that I’m happily comfortable in my own non-makeup skin. But I’m not quite there. However, I am on the right path to get there. Forcing myself to take better care of my skin, mainly focusing on my face, has helped me in my journey to be comfortable in my own skin. Slowly, over the last…

  • 2016,  Fitness,  Food,  Health,  Mental Health,  Midtown Strength & Conditioning,  Musings

    Musings: Do As I Say, Not As I Do!

    Can I please catch some of that self love everyone is talking about?! via Pinterest I’m not talking about that simple type of self love. I’m talking about the all encompassing, no bull shit, self love. I have some. I use some. But I don’t have that self love where I can look at myself, directly or in a mirror and accept the body I have. I critique it. I am annoyed by it. I am embarrassed by it. I want to change it. I just don’t like it… It’s always an internal battle of me telling myself to relax and love my body, while also being so grossed out…

  • 2015,  Mental Health,  Musings

    Musings: My Confidence Gap

    Confidence or lack thereof? I had every intention of doing a Five Things Friday post, but after a conversation with J yesterday (one of a few) I couldn’t shake my thoughts on this subject.  What is confidence? I’m not sure I even have this answered in my own head or thoughts. Sorry if this post seems slightly incoherent, my thoughts are all over the place, and I’m trying to figure out my feelings as I write this post.  If you watched the Mindy Project this week, then you’ll understand why our original conversation started. After the episode ended, I made the statement “I am not that confident.” J seemed to…