• 2020,  Mental Health,  Musings

    Musings: 2020 Intention Set

    No new year, new me BS! But you already know that. Never been one for resolutions, but I am one for goals. I don’t share or set them very often either. But I think setting an intention for 2020 is something I could get behind. I like the idea of having a word that I can strive for, think about, and reflect on for the entire year. I have never done this before, so we shall see how it goes. I think an intention is a hybrid of a goal and an aspiration. Setting an intention activates my ability to be receptive, manifest, and put out what I intend to…

  • 2019,  Health,  Mental Health,  Musings

    Musings: What the Stress?

    Let the bullshit blow in the breeze. The Pharcyde lyrics that are imprinted in my heart and mind. However, no matter how many times I repeat that line when I’m in the thick of it, it doesn’t help. It also doesn’t help when I cannot identify when I’m stressed. Does that happen to you? Do you know your stressors? Do you know how to de-stress yourself? Well, shit! Neither do I apparently. Recently, I’ve become so stressed my immune system was repressed, which eventually led to a flare up of Shingles. Yes, you’ve read that correctly. Shingles. Like what old people get. I’m digressing, but really it was the highlight…

  • 2019,  Mental Health,  Musings

    Musings: October Reset

    Fall has me in my feels. Well, I think it’s a bunch of life things happening, but I have an overwhelming sense that I need a reset of sorts. I need to start fresh if you will. Fall recently arrived, but the Sacramento weather has taken an unexpected chilly turn. I’m used to October still hovering in the 80s for a couple of weeks, but we are now in the brisk 60s. This weather change has coincided with some life changes. Not even big or anything I want to detail out here, but just change. Change happens all the time, but sometimes its more impactful than we realize. It felt…

  • 2019,  Mental Health,  Musings

    Musings: I Realized I’m a People Pleaser

    And I’m not okay with it… …at all! I want to write about this because it took hours of therapy and self-reflection to truly understand this. Then it took a while to accept this, but more importantly, I’m learning from it. And for that, I’m grateful I recognized it and can move forward in a different direction. There is definitely a spectrum of people-pleasing, and I’m somewhere in the middle. I don’t have an eager to please that stems from self-worth issues. In turn, I do act according to how rejected and/or accepted I anticipate an outcome will happen. The most important part of my process of understanding my people-pleasing…

  • 2019,  Mental Health,  Musings,  Relationships,  Therapy

    Musings: Growth is Ugly

    Yet so rewarding. Growth and healing are a beautiful struggle I’ve experienced lately, across all parts of my life; family, friends, and personal relationships. It’s most impacted the way I communicate with these different people overall. I see the differences, resulting from healing and actively trying to grow into the best version of myself. Things don’t bug me as they used too. I don’t hold on to anger, nor do I associate its origin with anyone or anything else. I have learned to let things go. Some are worth my time and voice, and some just plain aren’t anymore. This means fewer relationships and more peace. I don’t know when…

  • 2019,  Fitness,  Mental Health,  Midtown Strength & Conditioning,  Musings

    Musings: OOO Every Thursday

    Something needed to change… …and it was on me. I feel a little fraudulent. I tend to share a lot of self-love, growth, and healing posts on social media and even here on the blog. But YET AGAIN, I find myself not listening to my own body. 10 amazing days in Hawaii, followed by a non-stop schedule when I touched down at home. All (kinda) came to a halt when my body decided to remind my mind to STOP. Slow down and stop going so fast. Be by yourself, be still. It isn’t until my body starts to shut down, do I slow down. I know this, yet I don’t practice…

  • 2019,  Friends,  Health,  Mental Health,  Sacramento,  Wellness

    Musings: Nourish

    A full day of wellness you say… Sure, sign me up. Thanks to Erica, of Fit Crawl, I was gifted a ticket for myself and Ambriss to attend the inaugural Nourish wellness event in Sacramento, CA. Two women, Amber Rosen & Sarah Stebbins, created Nourish to ‘…empower you with the knowledge and tools to support your wellbeing on a consistent, daily basis.’ From what I remember from the event, they met less than a year ago, where the idea for Nourish was started. Since then, they’ve developed a wellness brand that is based on the elements of her: body soul wealth community You already know I’m a little snarky, even…

  • 2019,  Mental Health,  Musings

    Musings: Expectations

    Everyone has them, but not everyone lives up to them. Scrolling through IG stories, I came across a story that put one of life’s biggest lessons so simple: Stop expecting YOU from people. When I read that, I was like, “THIS is what I’ve been trying to articulate for forever!” This is one of my biggest lessons I’ve learned in my 30’s. It’s taken that long for me to realize this and I am trying not to judge myself for this, but I’m just grateful I know it now. It doesn’t make it any easier when I feel let down. But it is teaching me to release expectations. Or at…

  • 2019,  Health,  Mental Health,  Therapy

    Musings: Let’s Talk About Therapy

    I’m just a girl who needed a therapist and decided to talk openly about it. I’m honored that people have reached out to me in regards to my experience with therapy and finding a therapist. I am not an expert and am still in the fresh stages of therapy, less than one year. But I would love to share my experience if it help others. Since I chose to be very open about my mental health post-breakup, a handful of friends and acquaintances have reached out about the details of my experience with therapy. While I believe sharing my truth is also being authentic with those around me, it has…

  • 2016,  Health,  Mental Health,  Musings

    Musings: Facial Face

    Do you make random things up?…like I do! Facial Face is among the handful of them. It’s pretty self explanatory, it’s my face after a facial. More importantly, its a face with no makeup. Literally taken right after I left the Skin Ninja, in her parking lot! I wish I could sit here and say that I’m happily comfortable in my own non-makeup skin. But I’m not quite there. However, I am on the right path to get there. Forcing myself to take better care of my skin, mainly focusing on my face, has helped me in my journey to be comfortable in my own skin. Slowly, over the last…