• 2020,  Body,  Boudoir,  Health,  Mental Health,  Musings

    Musings: A Reminder for the Days I Struggle with My Body

    Loving yourself is hard. I get it, girl. I really do! Society reminds us daily, even hourly, that our standard of beauty is absolute shit, but we still believe it. Skinny is not everything, but it’s been ingrained in us, by us I mean women, for so long we believe it is what we should look like and strive to be. We must unlearn it. We must reframe our thoughts. I am tired of hating my body. I am tired of shaming myself becuase of my body. I am tired of thinking about my body all the time. I want to be comfortable in my own skin. I want to…

  • 2020,  AllTrails,  California,  California Polytechnic State University,  Family,  Hiking,  Musings,  San Luis Obispo

    City Girl Hikes: Serenity Swing Trail – San Luis Obispo, CA

    I’m a sucker for a SWING! Spending Labor Day Weekend (LDW is apparently the cool new acronym to use) in San Luis Obispo (SLO), Lil and I knew we’d try to work out somehow some way. The hotel gym was closed due to COVID. So, I told her we should hike. Or run. Even though I told her this, I only came half prepared. And by half, I mean I brought the right hiking clothes and I didn’t even bring enough for that. The weather was way warmer than I ever thought it would be. That being said, when you use the AllTrails app in SLO most of the hikes…

  • 2020,  AllTrails,  California,  City Girl Hikes,  Hiking,  Musings,  San Luis Obispo

    City Girl Hikes: Bishop Peak Trail (via Patricia Drive) – San Luis Obispo, CA

    The quintessential SLO hike! Okay, I have some beef to clear up. Maybe they were tricking me, but I’ve done this hike once and I was told there is a SLO tradition that comes along with this hike – you bring a jug of Carlo Rossi up to the peak and you all drink it at the top and throw the jug over the side! There is a special way to hold the jug with the small, round handle and use your bicep to support the jug of Rossi. Like, am I crazy? Is this not a thing anymore? Was this never a thing? Anywho, in the spirit of our…

  • 2020,  Mental Health,  Musings

    Musings: Ambivalence, Yes Please

    Do you believe in serendipity? I do. As life unfolds, I see it in more and more. I’ve also come to learn and embrace my intuition. That feeling, I didn’t really know what it was for a long time. It’s hard to articulate, but I just feel things. Apparently it’s a Pisces trait. I dabble and enjoy astrology, but I don’t know how invested I am in it. But I will tell you, my intuition, even when I don’t want to listen to it or accept it, seems to usually be spot on, for whatever reason. I’m leaning into it though. So, over the last weekend one word repeated itself…

  • 2020,  California,  California Polytechnic State University,  College,  Musings,  San Luis Obispo

    Musings: SLO, I Love You

    Dearest San Luis Obispo (SLO), This is my attempt, fifteen years later, to really, honestly tell you how much I love you. You’ve changed tremendously since I was last there in 2015. And at that time, you’d already changed so much from when I graduated Poly in 2007. I don’t say that to imply your changes are bad in any way, it’s an evolution of the economy and needs of the City. I get it. But, you were a different place when I landed there in January of 2005. I arrived at your beautiful coastal town as a 21-year-old with so much eagerness, and still in love with her first…

  • 2020,  AllTrails,  Amador,  Body,  California,  City Girl Hikes,  Hiking,  Musings

    City Girl Hikes: John Bull Loop Trail – Amador, CA

    When the drive to the hike is cooler than the hike… Whomp! Whomp! Okay, that might be a tad exaggerated, but I was able to drive over the Pardee Dam. I thought it was pretty cool, even though it’s a one-lane dam, monitored by a stoplight. Which means I am entrusting others to pay attention to the light they are supposed to be stopped at. I only knew about Pardee because a friend had gone fishing here and said it was pretty. So, I saw it on AllTrails and I figured why not give it a go. But in my attempt to plan this, I visited the East Bay Municipal…

  • 2020,  AllTrails,  California,  City Girl Hikes,  Friends,  Hiking,  Musings,  Vacaville

    City Girl Hikes: Gates Canyon – Vacaville, CA

    Sometimes you sign up for a hike knowing its gonna be rough… I hike for the variety in my workouts, but the views and scenery are usually picturesque. Which obviously means I have some good IG content. I’ve enjoyed sharing my solo hiking adventures since it was a goal I accomplished. But, since hiking lends itself well to social distancing, I’ve had friends share an interest in joining me. And if you know me, you know I love doing things with friends (versus solo). All that being said, Ambriss joined me for the Gates Canyon hike. We knew it was an out and back, which included all up-hill out and…

  • 2020,  AllTrails,  California,  City Girl Hikes,  Hiking,  lululemon,  Musings,  Napa

    City Girl Hikes: Skyline Wilderness Park Loop – Napa, CA

    HARD (rating) is always relative… If you aren’t familiar with the AllTrails app, they have a trail rating system. They rate the difficulty from easy, moderate, to hard. In addition, they also have a five-star rating, based on the users perception of liking or disliking the hike. I titled this as the Skyline Wilderness Park Loop because the actual title is really intense – Skyline Trail, Thatcher’s Rim Rock Trail, and Lake Marie Road Loop. I chose this trail because it was a loop and the listed distance of 7 miles. This was officially my second solo hike, since the previous hike I met a new hiking friend and she…

  • 2020,  AllTrails,  California,  City Girl Hikes,  Hiking,  Musings,  St. Helena

    City Girl Hikes: Conn Peak & Shoreline Trail – St. Helena, CA

    Sometimes you make a hiking friend on a solo hike. I set out for my second solo hike, relying on the parking attendants’ directions on where to start the trail. You enter Moore Creek Park, pass one residential home, and then find the parking lot. About a quarter of a way into the first trail I chose, I ran into a girl coming toward me. I asked her if I was headed the right way and she told me ‘no,’ but she was also looking for the same trailhead. So, we essentially became friends from then on. HAHA! Neither of us was trying out hike the other, to add space…

  • 2020,  Mental Health,  Musings

    Musings: Loving Me is Hard

    And I credit my parents for that. AND I mean that in the most thoughtful way possible. Recently, I was having a convo with a friend, when they pointed out a few things. And not in a malicious way, I was very interested in their assessment of me, in regards to relationships. They said, “You need a weak man. And you are SOOO damn bull-headed.” They also went on to share that I act as if I was previously in a toxic and/or abusive relationship. To be followed with I overthink too much. Is this critical, yes. Was I upset, no? I was intent to understand their assessment because, at…