• 2018,  Relationships

    Musings: I Had to Breakup with L too…

    I think I lost my manual somewhere. HAHA. I can’t even type that without smiling and laughing. There is NO manual for being whatever you want to call the role that I played in L’s life. Bonus Mom is probably the most accurate because I wasn’t her Step Mom. I’m not her Mom. I’m just Daddy’s girlfriend, Stephanie. That’s what I am to her. Stephanie. And I love being Stephanie to her. Although I don’t think it even needs to be said, I will say it. I never ONCE believed I was her Mom. She has a mom and I respect the role that I fell into. What NO ONE tells you…

  • 2018,  Relationships

    Musings: These Eyes

    …never saw you leaving. Who knew that sharing such raw emotions and authenticity would be so empowering, so relieving, and so helpful through a deep, dark process? It wasn’t the cure, by FAR, but it helped. The love and responses received after Musings: Hundreds in Therapy, Later was overwhelming in the best way possible. I did not write that post for any other person, than myself. I still, after a full month post-break-up, have a hard time saying I’m single. I have a hard time not saying we or bringing up stories of us. It’s still raw, painful, and a pit of sadness still resides inside of me. Some days are better than others, some are not. I…

  • 2018,  Relationships

    Musings: Hundreds in Therapy, Later

    I think I knew it was coming… …our normal arguing seemed different this time around. His reaction to it all was very different. I’d seen him do this before. I knew what was coming next. I knew the time spent with his family, was him organizing his next steps. That fateful night, I almost didn’t have the conversation with him. I let down my fear and I opened my door (literally and figuratively) to hear what no woman in a long-term relationship wants to hear. It was over. Without grace and shamefully, over the next couple of days, I tried to talk my way through my pain and ignore what…

  • 2013,  Musings,  Relationships

    The Magical Word

    So, if you are like me at all, you may be inclined to do a little research before you try something new. Don’t get ahead of yourself, when I say a little, I really mean minimal, research. So, yes I did read a few articles on online dating. All I came out with was these same few tips: 1. Add a picture. 2. Create a fun username 3. Don’t be generic or typical Easy enough right? #1, boom, done! Then came #2, username – you don’t want to scare them away with things such as “tomboy” (no ridicule to my blog namesake), and you better not put your whole name as…

  • 2013,  Relationships

    And so it goes…

    Sometimes in life, there is a moment of what I guess I could call clarity. One instance that makes you think, okay, time to do something new or make a change. Two of my best friends, yes I have multiple (we can save that debate for a different blog post), have mentioned on-line dating. My pride has always been in the way of that. However, I don’t ever go out anymore, so what am I supposed to do? Work you say, well that would be okay if there were more than 5 people in my age bracket… That being said, and after coercing a good friend to start it with…