• 2019,  Mental Health,  Musings

    Musings: October Reset

    Fall has me in my feels. Well, I think it’s a bunch of life things happening, but I have an overwhelming sense that I need a reset of sorts. I need to start fresh if you will. Fall recently arrived, but the Sacramento weather has taken an unexpected chilly turn. I’m used to October still hovering in the 80s for a couple of weeks, but we are now in the brisk 60s. This weather change has coincided with some life changes. Not even big or anything I want to detail out here, but just change. Change happens all the time, but sometimes its more impactful than we realize. It felt…

  • 2019,  Baseball,  Musings,  SF Giants

    Musings: A Love Letter to Our Skipper

    I was not ready to write this before Sunday. I don’t think I’m still equipped to write this right now. Sunday I was full of emotions, coupled with possibly the worst hangover of 2019 too. Thus, made me an emotional mess to watch as Bruce Bochy commandeered his final SF Giants game E V E R! So, here I am, still sad with chills, going to say what I need to say to Boch. Dear Bochy, Congratulations on your retirement. I wish I could be mad that you are leaving us, but honestly, you deserve this retirement and time spent resting with loved ones and enjoying the next chapter of…

  • 2019,  Mental Health,  Musings

    Musings: I Realized I’m a People Pleaser

    And I’m not okay with it… …at all! I want to write about this because it took hours of therapy and self-reflection to truly understand this. Then it took a while to accept this, but more importantly, I’m learning from it. And for that, I’m grateful I recognized it and can move forward in a different direction. There is definitely a spectrum of people-pleasing, and I’m somewhere in the middle. I don’t have an eager to please that stems from self-worth issues. In turn, I do act according to how rejected and/or accepted I anticipate an outcome will happen. The most important part of my process of understanding my people-pleasing…

  • 2019,  Musings

    Musings: Adult On-Set Allergies SUCK

    My biggest regret is asking my doctor to do a food allergy blood test. Kidding, kinda, but not really :/ My skin was breaking out extremely bad, but it wasn’t zits. It was colorless bumps, but not uniform in size or texture. I know I’m blowing it out of proportion, but it did not make me feel good, nor boost my confidence. It took a couple of times happening over a few years, to finally ask my doctor about it. I kept trying to put a timeline to it, but since it happened so infrequently I couldn’t quite put a reason too it. I honestly thought I was allergic to…

  • 2019,  Fitness,  Mental Health,  Midtown Strength & Conditioning,  Musings

    Musings: OOO Every Thursday

    Something needed to change… …and it was on me. I feel a little fraudulent. I tend to share a lot of self-love, growth, and healing posts on social media and even here on the blog. But YET AGAIN, I find myself not listening to my own body. 10 amazing days in Hawaii, followed by a non-stop schedule when I touched down at home. All (kinda) came to a halt when my body decided to remind my mind to STOP. Slow down and stop going so fast. Be by yourself, be still. It isn’t until my body starts to shut down, do I slow down. I know this, yet I don’t practice…

  • 2019,  Mental Health,  Musings

    Musings: Expectations

    Everyone has them, but not everyone lives up to them. Scrolling through IG stories, I came across a story that put one of life’s biggest lessons so simple: Stop expecting YOU from people. When I read that, I was like, “THIS is what I’ve been trying to articulate for forever!” This is one of my biggest lessons I’ve learned in my 30’s. It’s taken that long for me to realize this and I am trying not to judge myself for this, but I’m just grateful I know it now. It doesn’t make it any easier when I feel let down. But it is teaching me to release expectations. Or at…

  • 2019,  Career,  Musings,  Wellness

    Musings: ENFP

    I’m going to start using Myers-Briggs to vet potential dates! I haven’t heard four letters thrown around so freely until I started at my current employer. I’ve taken the test a handful of times, on my own accord. But I’ve never had my employer be such a huge advocate for Myers-Briggs Type Indicator (MBTI). They encourage us to find ours, then they go deeper and teach you to communicate and learn from other types. I enjoy professional development, probably more than most. I was really excited to sign up for this course and to solidify which four letters would be assigned to me. Little did I know, they aren’t assigned…

  • 2019,  Health,  Mental Health,  Therapy

    Musings: Let’s Talk About Therapy

    I’m just a girl who needed a therapist and decided to talk openly about it. I’m honored that people have reached out to me in regards to my experience with therapy and finding a therapist. I am not an expert and am still in the fresh stages of therapy, less than one year. But I would love to share my experience if it help others. Since I chose to be very open about my mental health post-breakup, a handful of friends and acquaintances have reached out about the details of my experience with therapy. While I believe sharing my truth is also being authentic with those around me, it has…

  • 2019,  Dallas,  Musings,  New York,  Travel

    Musings: Life is Like My AWAY Luggage

    Saying ‘you have baggage’ is way overplayed. But in all seriousness, as I was painfully sitting through my three-hour layover in Dallas waiting to get home after eight days in New York, I got to thinking. Yes, randomly thinking about life, musing to myself. Unlike my AWAY luggage, the bumps and bruises of my life are hidden behind my brown skin. If you look at my AWAY luggage, it is no longer the pristine pale pink it once was when I first received it. It has colorful scrapes, luckily no dents yet. But what those scrapes can’t tell you is it has been to Italy, Orange County, and New York.…

  • 2019,  Birthdays,  Milestones

    Musings: 35 Things I’ve Learned at 35

    Do I even have 35 things I’ve learned this year? Before we get into it, I have to admit, I’ve been walking around assuming I’m 36 and about to turn 37. HAHA! I guess anything after 30 doesn’t really matter anymore right?! Just teasing, I don’t believe that for one second. I’ve always been one to celebrate birthdays. I love celebrating my next trip around the sun. I’m not afraid to get older, but I am afraid of death. I look forward to a year of lessons learned, the love shared, the laughter had, and good food enjoyed. I don’t expect every year to be shiny and rosy, but I…