• 2020,  Musings

    Musings: Uncertain Times

    The world decided to send us all a chill pill… Coronavirus. COVID-19. The “Chinese Virus” as our idiotic (being nice with this verb) President has termed it through his tweets. This pandemic has put us ALL in uncharted waters with less than ideal tools and resources to navigate through it. But we are resilient. By we, I mean us, humans. What I hope to see through all of this is a higher level of kindness, compassion, and understanding. It will take time to get there, but as we become more uncertain and stressed, we learn more about ourselves and how we can adapt to change and manage our feelings and…

  • 2020,  Career

    Musings: Courage in Action

    Remember when I set my intention? Yeah, well I wasn’t fully transparent about why I set it as courage. A LOT of things were happening at the end of 2019 and, well of course when it comes to your career you have to be more discreet. Although everyone who needed to know knew, it wasn’t something I wanted to share until it did or did not happen. But phew, IT happened! I have never fought so hard for a job. However, with this experience, I had one mindset that completely helped, what will be meant for you. Even if it doesn’t feel like it at the moment, it will be…

  • 2019,  Musings

    Musings: Thank You 2019

    It’s been A year, that’s for sure… But, I don’t feel like it’s been a bad year like all the memes would have you believe it has been. At least for me, it doesn’t feel that way. It definitely has had its high highs and low lows, but what year doesn’t? I’m trying to just allow myself to reflect on the year, but realizing we are closing out a decade makes it hard to reflect on the past year. Musings from 2019 Travel – A year of domestic travel! So excited to have checked off New York from my list, but I don’t feel like I adequately can because there…

  • 2019,  Cabo,  Christmas,  Family,  Holidays,  Mexico,  Musings

    Cali Girl Does Cabo: A Warm Christmas, Kinda…

    A warm Christmas always sounds so dreamy… And it fully is in reality! The Parentals have been saying it for a while, but they didn’t book it far in advance like they usually do. Sometime after we arrived home for our Hawaii trip, we got an email that Poppa Bear had booked our warm Christmas…but we’d come back on Christmas Eve. I don’t mind, either way, I just anticipated if we were going somewhere we’d miss Christmas in Sacramento altogether. But we didn’t, so we got the BEST of both worlds — warm vacation in December and home for the holiday! Oddly, the trip threw off my whole Christmas obsession.…

  • 2019,  Musings,  New Year

    Musings: 2010s, A Colorful Decade

    Not your average end of the year post. I honestly didn’t even think that as 2020 approaches, not only are we ending 2019, but we are ending a decade. Funny how life works out that way. As I sat here thinking about the last ten years, I was trying to think of the highlights, which proved a little difficult… Off the cuff, I came up with the following: 2010 – Traveled solo for the first time (Kauai) 2011 – Completely hiked Half Dome for the first time 2012 – The SF Giants won the World Series 2012 – Started my career at Blue Diamond Growers 2013 – I started blogging…

  • 2019,  Health,  Mental Health,  Musings

    Musings: What the Stress?

    Let the bullshit blow in the breeze. The Pharcyde lyrics that are imprinted in my heart and mind. However, no matter how many times I repeat that line when I’m in the thick of it, it doesn’t help. It also doesn’t help when I cannot identify when I’m stressed. Does that happen to you? Do you know your stressors? Do you know how to de-stress yourself? Well, shit! Neither do I apparently. Recently, I’ve become so stressed my immune system was repressed, which eventually led to a flare up of Shingles. Yes, you’ve read that correctly. Shingles. Like what old people get. I’m digressing, but really it was the highlight…

  • 2019,  Mental Health,  Musings

    Musings: October Reset

    Fall has me in my feels. Well, I think it’s a bunch of life things happening, but I have an overwhelming sense that I need a reset of sorts. I need to start fresh if you will. Fall recently arrived, but the Sacramento weather has taken an unexpected chilly turn. I’m used to October still hovering in the 80s for a couple of weeks, but we are now in the brisk 60s. This weather change has coincided with some life changes. Not even big or anything I want to detail out here, but just change. Change happens all the time, but sometimes its more impactful than we realize. It felt…

  • 2019,  Baseball,  Musings,  SF Giants

    Musings: A Love Letter to Our Skipper

    I was not ready to write this before Sunday. I don’t think I’m still equipped to write this right now. Sunday I was full of emotions, coupled with possibly the worst hangover of 2019 too. Thus, made me an emotional mess to watch as Bruce Bochy commandeered his final SF Giants game E V E R! So, here I am, still sad with chills, going to say what I need to say to Boch. Dear Bochy, Congratulations on your retirement. I wish I could be mad that you are leaving us, but honestly, you deserve this retirement and time spent resting with loved ones and enjoying the next chapter of…

  • 2019,  Mental Health,  Musings

    Musings: I Realized I’m a People Pleaser

    And I’m not okay with it… …at all! I want to write about this because it took hours of therapy and self-reflection to truly understand this. Then it took a while to accept this, but more importantly, I’m learning from it. And for that, I’m grateful I recognized it and can move forward in a different direction. There is definitely a spectrum of people-pleasing, and I’m somewhere in the middle. I don’t have an eager to please that stems from self-worth issues. In turn, I do act according to how rejected and/or accepted I anticipate an outcome will happen. The most important part of my process of understanding my people-pleasing…

  • 2019,  Musings

    Musings: Adult On-Set Allergies SUCK

    My biggest regret is asking my doctor to do a food allergy blood test. Kidding, kinda, but not really :/ My skin was breaking out extremely bad, but it wasn’t zits. It was colorless bumps, but not uniform in size or texture. I know I’m blowing it out of proportion, but it did not make me feel good, nor boost my confidence. It took a couple of times happening over a few years, to finally ask my doctor about it. I kept trying to put a timeline to it, but since it happened so infrequently I couldn’t quite put a reason too it. I honestly thought I was allergic to…